Lately I’ve been feeling a little down at times. While I’m partly blaming PMS (one of the most convenient excuses a girl can make!), I think partly it’s because some things seem to not be going smoothly and they are a little rough.
As easy as it is to allow myself wallowing in self pity, I tried my best not to do so and instead, thinking of how much I have and how much blessing I’ve been receiving every day really helps in switching my negative mindset to positive.
During cell group 2 weeks ago, a friend said something that stuck with me and it actually popped up in my head a few times lately. He said,
When I feel really stressed up with work, I think of how stressed up I was when I had just graduated with no job for a few months. I’ve never experienced stress in such intensity before and it was really bad. Therefore, whenever I think of that, I will feel grateful because the stress I’m feeling is because I have a job, not because I don’t have one.
It made me think and reflect back on when I was unemployed for a few months during my first year in Singapore. It was indeed really stressful to wake up every morning desperately applying for countless of jobs, having no income yet renting a room does not come for free. Damn stress ok! Some more need to eat instant noodles everyday, no wonder my hair became wavy HAHAHA no la kidding.
Definitely not a life episode I would want to repeat ever again. I think I lost about 4 kg of weight over that period of time o.O that’s one of the silver linings I guess :p (I have the tendency to lose weight when I am under a lot of pressure even though I eat like a pig at ungodly hours of the night)
Anyway, I could go on more about that part of my life but today’s post is not about that!
I’ve been listening to True Worshippers a lot lately. They help to lift my spirits up whenever I’m feeling low and this particular song really appeals to me lately:
Who sees my brokenness and carries me when I am frail and weak
Jesus it is You
Who tells the storm to rest when I am overwhelmed and cannot speak
Jesus it is You
So true!! This part of the lyrics is one that is easy to relate to. Sometimes I may forget about it when things went awry but Jesus is always there to support me whenever I’m frail and week ^^
Ahhh ok feeling better after a little bit of verbal diarrhea! Time to get back to work and tick off everything on my checklist today!