A long day

It’s been a long day today, and it hasn’t ended yet as I’m typing this at 1:37am. Was feeling quite stressed and depressed for the last couple of hours. Finding out one of your best friends has cancer after a long day at work was not pleasant at all. I’m glad it was discovered early, though. Hopefully she can be declared all clean soon!!

Thankfully Mr. Phlegmatic was there with me. He patiently waited for me to finish my work (he was sitting at the lobby for about an hour, entertaining himself with 9GAG, I think…), then accompanied me to visit the best friend at the hospital, and we had a quick dinner and dessert on the go (desserts always make everything better) before we went home (all these without me realising that he was actually not feeling well! I’m sorry!). Otherwise, I think I could have break down (at one point of time, I was actually trying hard to blink back the tears – wahlao why was I so emotional?! I guess I just had a lot running through my mind >.<). Thank you, darling.

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Goodbye Grandma…

2 months + since you were discovered with tumors in your brain. And today God has lifted your pains, and brought you back with Him to Heaven.

We all love you grandma…You are gonna be missed so much…

Bye2 Yui…

One of my good friends left Beijing today, back to Thailand (ermm…she’s paying Guang Zhou a visit first for a week or so, then only she flies back to Thai)

Nath and I cried when she was about to board the rented car…

I was trying to resist my tears at first, even when I hug her, because I didn’t want her to look at us crying and feel sad (Nath has already crying at this time)

But finally I couldn’t resist it anymore…(haiz..why am I so emo lar?)

*Hmm…this is the start of the friends-leaving season that will be start by next week…4th of June to be precise…Yuka is leaving Beijing on the 4th of June…She will be the second person leaving BLCC and I won’t see her again next semester as I won’t return back here…

And then one by one…we’ll all go on our own ways…*

Anyway, it’s been almost a year since the first time I knew Yui. She was my classmate in 初级二班 and in 初级七班 as well. Our friendship really began when we went to The Temple of Heaven (天坛公园) together with Nath last semester. This semester, you became Nath’s roomy and the I became closer with you 🙂

I feel so happy knowing you! A nice girl who is always there to help her friends whenever they need her. A kind girl who’s paying a good attention to her friends.

Well, although sometimes I feel a bit disappointed with your stone-headed behavior, but that doesn’t really matter, as basically you are a really nice friend 🙂

Goodbye Yui…All the best for you. Don’t know when can we meet again. Maybe on your wedding day? *wink* 😉

P’Ped, Yui, Nath, and I
Taken yesterday after our last lunch together…

He teardrop and she teardop

I was blog-hopping and found this beautiful post…

Two teardrops were floating down the river. One teardrop said to the other,

“I’m the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. Who are you?”

“I’m the teardrop of the man who regret letting a girl go…”

She teardrop consoled, “There would come a time when we have to stop loving someone because we found out that they’d be happier if we let them go…”

He teardrop replied, “But then you’ll know that you miss someone very much when every time you think of that person, your heart breaks into pieces and just a quick ‘Hello’ from that person brings the broken pieces back…”

She teardrop said, “It’s really painful to say goodbye to someone else that you don’t want to let go; but it’s even more painful to ask someone to stay if you can never make the relationship work out the way it should be.”

She continued, “LOVE? It’s kind of complicated, but I’ll tell youth is… the second you’re willing to make yourself miserable to make someone else happy, that’s love right there….”

He teardrop pondered and said, “You know, if i had the letters “HRT”, I can add “EA” to get a “HEART” or a “U” and get “HURT”. But I’d rather choose “U” and get “HURT” than have a “HEART” without “U”…

She teardrop smiled and replied, “Giving someone all your love is not an assurance that she will love you back. Don’t expect love in return, wait for it to grow in her heart, if it doesn’t, be contented it grows in yours.”

He teardrop continued, “She told me once, do not be too good, I will miss you. Don’t be too caring; I might like you. Don’t be too sweet; I might fall for you.”

She teardrop smiled and said, “A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes.”

She teardrop continued, “If you love her please let her know because it hurts to love when you have to go. Take care of me; don’t go away because if you love me, you will stay… i love you and do you know why? You got me when you first said ‘Hi'”

He teardrop said, “You are brave she teardrop, now I know it’s always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose it in the end rather than never found love because you were too afraid of the challenge.”

He teardrop continued further, “Did you know that the expression “Nothing” is the subconscious mind’s way of saying I Love You…that’s what I do, I told her NOTHING and because of that I lost her even though I love her… I cry for the time that she was almost mine, I cry for the memories I’ve left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old and the new. I cry for the times I thought I had her!”

She teardrop consoled, “Relationships are like glass, sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together, or worse, have nothing strong to bind it together. You never lose in loving. You only lose in holding back.”

He teardrop cried, “Now I know, I have learned. Don’t throw your back to love when it’s already in front of you, don’t drive it away from you because if you did, someday you’ll think again why you let love fly away when it was once next to YOU…”

I’ve never said this before, so I guess this will be the first time ever for me to say that…

I hate my life at the moment.

It’s just sucks.

Everything just doesn’t seem right.

Don’t worry. I will be ok soon…

…I hope…

你知道吗?

从你离开我的时,我觉得非常寂寞。每天都没有人找我,没有人问我 “你吃饭了没有?”, “你干什么?”,…没有人祝我 “晚安!, 好好休息啊!”…

Haihz…很可啦! 😦

起床的时候我看了手机, 盼望你送给我一个短信…但是…没有了…

我哭了…

…因为我知道你不能跟我在这里…

你知道吗?

我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉。。。

那是什么样子?

我希望再来一次。。。

“懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深
在我心中留下伤痕
你同时点亮了星辰

那么多相遇 偏偏只和你
天造地设般产生奇迹

我心的缝隙 我想除了你
任谁也无法填补这空虚。。。“

我很想念你。。。