Backdated pregnancy posts – 11 and 13 weeks

Backdated post from 3rd October 2018 (11 weeks pregnant)

My next doctor’s appointment is actually not until 20th October, but I decided to make a last minute one because I had a fainting episode on Saturday during my brother in law’s wedding mass.

I had breakfast in the morning at 7-ish am and a little more before we head to church at 9am. 15 minutes before the mass started at 11, my stomach rumbled so I had a few pieces of crackers.

Not long after the mass begun, my stomach started to rumble again and I told one of my sisters in law (SIL) next to me that I was hungry. She said she was too and we laughed.

About half an hour into the mass during the Eucharistic Prayer, we had to kneel and that’s when I started feeling sick and dizzy. I told Felix about it and he asked if I wanted to go outside now. I didn’t reply and instead put a little bit of pressure in between my eyebrows and closed my eyes, hoping to rest for a few seconds and things would get better.

The next thing I know, everyone was surrounding me and I was lying in an awkward position (my upper body was on the seat while my legs were still in half kneeling position). People were panicking looking for something to wake me up but thankfully I woke up right away (according to Felix, it took about 10-15 seconds from the time I told him I was dizzy to the time I woke up.

On top of that, apparently I hit my head twice, both the forehead and the back, on the pew. Apparently Felix was holding my shoulder but my head was still swinging back and front hahaha.

I remember Felix quickly ran to the car to get water and my crackers, while my mum sat next to me. Felix’ aunties sitting behind me massaging my shoulders, my SIL wiping the sweat off my forehead. The parents sitting in front of me were all looking at my direction too.

Some of the bride’s mum’s church friends were also in a panic, offering sweets and all. The wedding organiser team were running around getting me water, herbal medicine and even vitamin C tablets. Really appreciate all these in making sure I was okay!

After I felt better, Felix took me to the back of the church, and someone passed me a chocolate-filled bread. That was a saviour. I sat down, munch on the bread and had some water. My parents followed us to the back and sat down with us too.

My mum said bub was complaining that he/she was hungry and therefore went on a strike hahahahaha!

Thankfully everything was fine after that.

Since I’m flying to Sydney this Saturday, I wanted to make sure bub is okay before I leave, hence the last minute appointment today.

Very happy to say bub is growing well! The body parts are more defined now in the scans and he/she waved at me!! His/her legs were crossing and it was really cute!

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Backdated post from 21st October 2018 (13 weeks and 7 days pregnant)

So I’ve technically passed the first trimester!

It’s been manageable so far, with sickness here and there from time to time. One thing that has been pretty annoying is I would feel really sick whenever I ate just a little bit more than what my stomach could handle (which has already decreased a lot ever since I fell pregnant), and the only thing that would make me feel better is to throw up. And here people are saying that I am eating for two hence I should be eating more. Right.

Tonight is one of those nights. I had a little too much and didn’t even finish my meal (as usual). Almost immediately I felt really sick. Hubby tried to rub my back and really tried to make me feel better T_____T

In the end I had to throw up more than half my dinner and that made me feel a little better, although my stomach still feels really full.

I’m pregnant!

I’ve loved babies and kids since I was young – my parents can testify.

So when we got married, I wanted to try and conceive right after our honeymoon. However, hubby was a little apprehensive especially from financial point of view (he felt he hadn’t earned enough to take care of a family). Which I definitely understood.

After honeymoon, our sentiments were more towards ‘when it happens, it happens’, y’know? So we didn’t really put too much pressure into it, and to be perfectly honest we didn’t try hard enough in the first place.

When hubby got accepted into a new job mid this year, he felt that he’s finally ready for a baby, and he said to try for a baby 3 months into his new job. So after a week-long holiday in Bangkok end July, we came back to Singapore and to be honest I wasn’t expecting anything. In fact, I actually went clubbing 5 days later (after 8 years not stepping foot into a club hahaha.. I really am not a party girl in the slightest) and downed 2 glasses of champagne.

I also went for a dinner buffet the following Monday and had a few pieces of salmon sashimi. Additionally, I ordered some ovulation tests online around this time.

I think it was around a week after the buffet (around 20th August) that I started to feel uneasy in my tummy. It felt uncomfortable but it wasn’t like the kind I usually experience right before period, and when it kept going for a few days, I started to think if this was actually a sign of my period coming or if it was something else.

My period has almost always been irregular, so when I checked my period app and realised I was 6 days late, I didn’t think too much about it.

I actually felt a little nauseous. Not so bad that I had to throw up but more like feeling bloated.

Hubby kept on asking me when I told him that the symptoms persisted, “Do you think you could be pregnant?” and kept on calling his ‘mini me’ in my tummy 😂

When the symptoms didn’t go away after 2 weeks, I decided to head out and get myself some pregnancy tests from the pharmacy. I picked up one of those cassette-type (can’t remember the brand) and one of the usual stick (Watsons house brand) – apparently they were having a 1-for-1 promotion for their house brand’s pregnancy tests, so I ended up with 4 sticks (there were 2 in a pack).

The ovulation tests arrived in the mail on the same day. A little too late eh, considering I’ve just bought my pregnancy tests.

The next morning (29 Aug), I jolted off my bed the moment my alarm went off and went to the bathroom with the cassette-type test. Peed into a disposable cup I got as part of the ovulation tests, dropped 3-4 drops of urine into the sample well and really quickly after…

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I couldn’t believe my eyes, so I quickly took the Watsons stick and dip it into the urine cup for slightly more than 5 seconds. Two lines appeared right away!

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OMG! My jaw dropped to the floor! I patted the tests dry with tissues and while holding them, shook my husband up from his deep slumber. He eyes immediately lit up upon seeing me holding the tests. Switched on the lights, and he was grinning from ear to ear with happiness!! I wish I could have that recorded!

“You’re preggy!!!” – his exact words.

We were both in shock yet ecstatic! Throughout the day I kept on thinking if the 2 tests were accurate, and I asked the husband if I should get another one from Clearblue.

Him: Huh? It already says more than 99% accurate and yet you’re still not convinced?

Me: I know… It’s just that I need reassurance!

So I went to get a Clearblue during lunch, and used it the next morning (30 Aug).

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A clear blue (pun intended) positive sign appear almost right away!

Walked out of the bathroom to him asking me, “So how was it?”

“Positive!”

“Yayyyyyy!” and promptly closed his eyes and went back to sleep hahahaha.

I quickly called up my gynaecologist that afternoon to make an appointment and thankfully there was a slot for Saturday (1st September).

Saturday came, and I was feeling quite anxious my tummy hurts (happens whenever I’m feeling anxious) and I could feel my heart beating faster than usual.

During the regular check up with the nurse before doctor’s consultation, I was thinking my blood pressure might spiked up because of how anxious I was. Turns out it was a normal 110/70 (a little low actually, considering my usual BP is 120/80). The lady asked when was my first day of my last period (it was in May). She quickly asked, “Are you pregnant?”, to which I just replied, “That’s what I want to find out.”

We were finally called into the room (it felt like forever… my appointment was at 9:30am, and we went in to see the doctor about 11:40-ish). The doctor looked at the notes from the nurse and asked, “So your home test came out positive?”

“Yep, I had 3 tests and all came out positive. So I wanted to confirm it.”

“Well, if the home test says positive, it should be positive. Chemical reaction is more accurate than us humans.”

He then proceeded to run an ultrasound on my lower tummy and right away, the tiny fetus appeared on the screen!!

“Okay, let’s do an internal scan so we can listen to the baby’s heartbeat.” and proceeded to take an transvaginal scan device.

I swear I almost fainted when I saw it. It was so big?!

Might be a little too much information here, but it was quite painful when the doctor inserted the transvaginal scan down there. It only got comfortable after he moved it around a little bit to get a good look at the fetus.

And there it was… our baby’s heartbeat ❀

It was beating really fast (about twice as fast of adult human’s heartbeat)! Felix and I were in awe of how amazing it was. I mean, here’s a tiny little embryo and yet, the heart is already beating strong ❀

It was about 5 weeks old then. The embryo has since developed into a fetus.

When I returned for another scan 2 weeks later, it was discovered that my baby was actually 9 weeks old – more accurate this time given that it has grown and the doctor could measure it appropriately.

I’m now 23 weeks along, and in the first trimester I had been:

  • Feeling hungry every 2 hours. No joke, I have to eat something light, e.g. crackers every 2 hours, otherwise I’m gonna feel really sick and nauseated (still experiencing this until about 15 weeks along, but a lot better. I don’t need to snack as often as I had to).
  • Having bitter taste in my mouth for no apparent reason (happened for 15-16 weeks, after almost every meal).
  • Couldn’t finish my food most of the time (happened until 16-17 weeks), so I need to have smaller meals on more regular intervals.
  • Having hunger pangs strikes right before I sleep at 10pm (sometimes).
  • Feeling lethargic and tired really easily, all day long. I could spend the whole day resting and napping at home and would still feel tired. One Sunday I literally woke up in the morning, had breakfast, had a 2.5-hour nap, lunch, 3 hour nap, dinner, shower, bed. I’m feeling so much better the moment I’ve entered my 15th week.
  • Feeling queasy and bloated in my stomach everyday, and quite nauseous too at times. Thankfully I haven’t reached the point of throwing up just yet (fingers crossed).
  • Having mild stomach cramps now and then. Apparently it’s quite a common symptoms as your body is stretching and making a space for a little human (!) inside.
  • Throwing up when brushing teeth (still happening). Pregnancy symptoms can be really funny sometimes. Apparently it’s normal to develop new gag reflex when brushing your teeth and that’s what happens to me.

One of the best things about this pregnancy is that my manager’s wife is currently pregnant with their 2nd child (she’s about 1.5 weeks ahead of me), so he could totally sympathise with my symptoms and conditions, especially the hunger pangs and fatigue – cos his wife is experiencing it too.

Felix has been really excited about the whole pregnancy and he’s the one who calms me down whenever I’m having any cramps or nausea episodes.

The 2nd trimester has been good so far, and I could feel my energy is coming back little by little. I could actually go out for a few hours on weekends! (we didn’t really go out during the first trimester). It’s amazing to think how I have a mini human forming inside of me!

Thank you Lord for this gift, for trusting us to be parents. It still feels surreal… ❀

Conversations with My Boss #2

It was a Friday. He walked in to the office and…

Him: Do you know what day is it today?

Me: What? Friday? (I somehow knew it would be related to lunch)

Him: Nope. Think again.

Me: Yea I know. It’s my turn (to pick a lunch venue) today.

Him: You know, by now I realised I’m a creature of habit, cos you and my wife can finish my sentences.

During lunch one day:

Him: So what has Felix been doing now that he’s free? (Felix was and is currently enjoying 2 weeks of freedom before he begins his new job next month)

Is he doing anything romantic for you, like making dinner, getting you flowers or something?

Me: I wish. At the very least he does the laundry.

Him: Well, that’s great, but why is he not doing anything sweet or romantic while he has the time now?

Me: Well, I’m not expecting anything. I’m happy he’s doing the laundry at home.

Him: Yeaa, I’m saying all this but if I’m in his position I’d probably not gonna do anything either. Cos it’s the only time you can really shut down from work.

But since it’s you I’m with, I’m supporting you!

😂

I’ve found my dress!

With 6 months to go before the big day, I’m still relatively chill in this whole planning thing because most of our big ticket items have been settled!

I have also picked my wedding dress! 😀

Being quite a picky bride to be, I have my own preference for my wedding dress (which I believe most brides will have as well):

  • No strapless gowns
  • No chicken coop (a.k.a petticoat – I really hate petticoats)
  • No bling.

I don’t fancy Taiwanese-style wedding gowns because most of the times they are a complete opposite of what I listed above and often times they are very OTT (over the top). That’s why bridal shops are out of the question ever since we started planning the wedding and I much prefer simpler, European wedding dresses.

I’ve had my eyes set on a Pronovias when I first started looking for gowns and found a boutique here in Singapore that rents out the said brand. Pricing was reasonable too (I found out that it was cheaper to rent it in SG than Jakarta, but I’m not sure whether the ones in SG were new or if they had been rented out to other brides previously – in Indonesia they call this: “second” as in “second hand”. Some bridal shops actually classified their gowns in different grades, depending on how many times has a gown been worn before).

After shortlisting 4 different boutiques (all of them conveniently located around the area where I stay in Jakarta hahahaha), I made a point to make my selection when I went home for Chinese New Year last month (which explains why I took 3 days of leave so I was in Jakarta for the whole week).

The first option was Phangsanny. To be honest, I’ve never heard about this until my cousin (who is currently planning her upcoming May wedding as well!) picked her gown from the atelier.

I gave them a call to see if I could come over and they politely rejected me, saying that they were fully booked for the day. Oh well, my fault for not making an appointment beforehand (later I found out that my cousin was actually there at the boutique having her dress fitted when I made the call hahahahaha).

So I crossed out Phangsanny. The second one was The Wedding Boutique, which is a pretty famous one and I have actually been there last year when I came back to settle on the wedding venue. Tried one gown that looks quite nice but that was it. Pricing was on the higher side (as expected). I was quoted IDR 28,000,000 for a gown (not sure if it was new). Initially they quoted about 30,000,000 or so but I asked for mother’s and bridesmaids’ gowns to be taken out since I wanted to have them tailor made anyway). I have actually never returned to TWB since then. Mainly because I wanted to explore other options before making my decision.

The third one was Inezia Chrizita. She is an upcoming local wedding gown designer who happens to be a family friend. I knew her when we were in primary school! But I’ve lost all contact with her ever since (our mothers are still in touch with each other because they are long-time friends). Her boutique also happens to be very, very near to where I stay.

Inez wasn’t there at the boutique when I came by, and so I was serviced by her very helpful assistant. I tried on a couple of gowns but unfortunately there was no one that really caught my eye. Well, there was an off-shoulder model which I quite like, but I didn’t fancy the heavy embroidery on the chest and torso areas. The dresses were pretty, but I still prefer the simpler ones.

The last one was Aurelle House of Brides. They carry the Pronovias brands, such as La Sposa, Pronovias and Atelier Diagonal – hence the reason why I wanted to check it out.

The lady (Ivana) was very helpful and picked a couple of gowns for me to try on after I told her my preferences. The gown I picked is a new La Sposa! It’s simple, elegant and with just the right amount of sparkles. It’s a sleeeveless and most importantly, NO CHICKEN COOP. Hahahaha basically everything I wanted in a gown.

She offered me a package of IDR 29,000,000 which consists of:

  • Rental of 1 wedding gown
  • Rental of 3 dresses for pre-wedding photo session
  • Rental of 2 bridesmaids dresses
  • Gown customisation (length customisation and if I ever want to add more blings, for example)
  • Veil, jacket (new made-to-measure)
  • Accessories + jewellery (rental)
  • A representative from Aurelle to help me with my gown on the D-day

Again, since my bridesmaids dresses are to be made-to-measure and I am gonna be having my pre-wedding photographs done in SG, I asked for them to be taken out and she also gave me further discount. In the end, the total price was IDR 25,500,000 and my mum very kindly offered to pay for it! 😀

I’m very happy that my gown has been settled! One thing off my checklist.

On LGBT

So LGBT has been kind of a hot topic in Indonesia recently, I think mainly due to the case of an Indonesian entertainer who was reported of committing sexual assault to a minor of the same gender (male).

Because of that, articles about how to see if someone is gay and how to prevent your kids from being turned into a gay have been popping up like crazy!

I ignored whatever they were saying until I read this article, and I quote:

The leading psychiatric body in Indonesia is claiming that transgender people suffer from a mental health disorder and gay and bisexual people are at risk of mental health problems.

In the latest outburst in an increasingly divisive domestic debate on lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) issues, the Indonesian Psychiatric Association said transgender people “can be categorised as persons with mental disorders”, which it said “may cause suffering and obstacles in functioning as a human being”.

The IPA also said that homosexuals and bisexuals were in danger of developing a psychiatric disorder unless they “maintain their mental health by guarding their behaviour, habit, healthy lifestyle, and increasing their ability to adapt to their social environment”.

Seriously? First of all, transgenderism is NOT a mental health disorder! And to think this came from the leading psychiatric body? I really cannot believe this.

Oh wait, it is a mental health disorder, if you are still living in the 1970s, that is.

Now let me give you my personal stand towards LGBT: I am a Catholic and LGBT is considered a sin in Catholicism. Personally, I don’t believe LGBT is right, but I’ve grown to be acceptance to the community because, simply, they are humans, just like us. I believe I don’t have the rights to judge them just because they prefer same-sex relationships. Heck, even Pope Francis is tolerant towards the LGBT community. If he can do it, why can’t we?

“If someone is gay and searches for the Lord and has good will, who am I to judge?”

I really like the above statement. Let me emphasise it once again: WHO AM I TO JUDGE?

My first encounter with LGBT was back when I was in university. Was I shocked? Yes, kind of. I won’t deny it. However, as shocked as I probably was, I never for once rejected them as friends. What was on my mind were things like, “How could someone be a lesbian / gay? What was the possible cause?”. I was curious, you see, as I didn’t get a lot of exposure in this area before I went to Malaysia to further my studies and then Singapore for work. So yea, I was simply curious but I didn’t look at them with disgust.

One of my good friends is a lesbian AND a catholic too. She and her partner go to church on Sundays. This is a very good example that is relevant to Pope Francis’ quote above. I’ve never judged her for liking the same gender and well, lesbian or not, it doesn’t make any difference in our friendship. She is a really awesome friend, she has good will and I love her! And she doesn’t have any mental health disorder nor is she at risk of mental health problems. Surprise surprise?

A person once asked me, in a provocative manner, if I approved of homosexuality. I replied with another question: ‘Tell me: when God looks at a gay person, does he endorse the existence of this person with love, or reject and condemn this person?’ We must always consider the person. Here we enter into the mystery of the human being.

It was another excerpt from the Pope Francis article.

Anyway, Catholic church has been more welcoming to the LGBT community than it was a few years ago, which I personally think is quite heartwarming because, again, everyone deserves to be loved. If a gay / lesbian comes into the church and wants to look for God, shouldn’t we give them the space, accept and embrace them with open arms instead of snubbing them? We should help them in whatever way we can.

If you think it is a sin for them to be a gay / lesbian, let it be a matter between them and God. Why should we interfere?

My parents do not really think of LGBT as acceptable and I can understand that because back in the days, it was relatively uncommon and unheard of. However, for many young adults in this 21st century, if you condemn LGBT, please just keep it to yourself and don’t invite others to condemn the community as well. How would you like it if it happens to your own family members? Will you like it if they are ostracised from the society?

Earlier today I saw a post that has been making rounds on Facebook:

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Okay, I’m not sure which newspaper was this from, but let me translate it to English:

“The National Commission of Child Protection would like to remind parents to tighten up supervision towards their children to prevent them from the impact of lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT). Currently there are thousands of young kids and teenagers who are into same-sex relationship.

Signs of a gay:

  1. Takes selfie a la teenybopper
  2. Likes staring at a guy’s bottom
  3. Stares at the guy he likes intensely
  4. Takes care of his appearance
  5. Up to date with the fashion trend
  6. Smells good
  7. Wears makeup
  8. Wears an earring on one of the ears (usually the right one)
  9. Adores guys
  10. Wears V-neck shirts

Upon reading this, I burst out laughing cos it’s just so pathetic to the point it’s ridiculous I couldn’t believe it! I mean, look at #6???? So are you saying that a ‘real’ man is smelly, doesn’t take care of his appearance and wears crew-neck shirts all the time???

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Sorry, I couldn’t help it.

My fiancĂ© wears V-neck shirts and heck, he looks good in them and yes, he is straight. Otherwise, he wouldn’t be my fiancĂ©, would he?

#9 – Adores guys. So does it mean a guy who adores David Beckham for his awesome skills is considered gay? Does it mean a guy who adores Jack Ma for his amazing business acumen is gay? LOL oh dear!

Last but not least, someone in one of my Whatsapp groups forwarded the following message: 1

Some people really need to take the chill pill. They are just emojis, for goodness sake! Well, you can always look at them from a different perspective. Think of them as children in a family or love between twins or siblings. See, suddenly it looks much more positive, no? And anyway, emojis are supposed to brighten up your conversations, so let’s not make such a big fuss over it, shall we?

To end my post, I’m gonna repost the quote again to serve as a reminder for all of us:

“If someone is gay and searches for the Lord and has good will, who am I to judge?”

Overly Attached Boyfriend

You know the “Overly Attached Girlfriend” meme?

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It’s of this girl whose eyes are so huge when she opens them up to a maximum proportion and it just went viral. Hahaha! She actually looks quite pretty in her normal photos though!

Anyway, the mister asked me to try imitating her, which of course, I failed miserably, seeing how my eyes are of a smaller size than an almond. So I asked him to do it instead…

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Presenting the Overly Attached Boyfriend! He looked so scary my phone didn’t even dare to snap his picture properly wtf.

Really! I kept on trying to focus on his face but I couldn’t! My phone just refused to do so! It knew the object was too scary. Hahahahahaha!!

The sky was crying hard for almost the whole day yesterday. Which is good cos it made the weather soooo cool and nice! Spent the Sunday at the mister’s place having a meeting and playing a board game (DiXit) which was so fun! Any game that allows you to team up and sabotage one of the players is cool. Hahahaha!

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Look at those bunnies! Aren’t they cute? 😀

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At this point of time, the mister was the one with the lowest point (yep, that’s him in yellow. Hehehehe), but he won the 2nd round!

Then we realised that all 6 of us were couples while 1 is not. So we decided to take a photo and graced it with a meme…

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HAHAHAHAHAHA! This is epic lor! Andy’s expression is just so apt with the whole picture. “Aku rapopo” means “I’m okay” in Javanese. I guess only Indonesians will get this meme. Hehehehe

It’s okay, dude. You’ll find someone soon!

I’ve been Caged

When I came to the office yesterday after an Easter long weekend, I expected nothing but my usual routine of unlocking my drawer, taking out my laptop, turning it on, and start running for the day.

However, I got a surprise when I saw THESE on my wall, in my drawers, and in my notebook:

 

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I was laughing like crazy when I saw this! Luckily only a handful of people were around at that time.

I immediately knew it was Avtar’s doing! Who else would have this kind of idea but him? Hahaha! So when he walked into the office, he walked past my desk and giggled.

Me: Thanks for the surprise, ah!

Avtar: How many have you found so far?

Me: Four

Avtar: Where were they at?

Me: Nahh.. on the wall, 2 in the drawers, and 1 in my notebook

Avtar: That’s not all. You’ll see the biggest one soon

Me: What?! Where’s the other one??

Avtar: Just wait. It’s coming soon.

 

So okay, I went on with my day as usual. Then about 2-3 hours later, I received a phone call from a client. I was wondering why his voice sounded so distant and I kept on hearing some scratching sound in my ear. I thought it was my hair covering the receiver, so I swept it off, but no! That scratchy sound was still there! I’ve also increased the volume to the max but his voice still sounded rather distant.

Confused, I put the receiver away and that was when I saw it…

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I pointed it out to Mag and she laughed so hard quietly (if that even makes sense). I had to resist from laughing like a siao char bor throughout the call! Once the call has ended, I could finally laugh in peace. LOL this is damn epic!

So yeah, I’ve been Caged on a Monday!