I’ve loved babies and kids since I was young – my parents can testify.
So when we got married, I wanted to try and conceive right after our honeymoon. However, hubby was a little apprehensive especially from financial point of view (he felt he hadn’t earned enough to take care of a family). Which I definitely understood.
After honeymoon, our sentiments were more towards ‘when it happens, it happens’, y’know? So we didn’t really put too much pressure into it, and to be perfectly honest we didn’t try hard enough in the first place.
When hubby got accepted into a new job mid this year, he felt that he’s finally ready for a baby, and he said to try for a baby 3 months into his new job. So after a week-long holiday in Bangkok end July, we came back to Singapore and to be honest I wasn’t expecting anything. In fact, I actually went clubbing 5 days later (after 8 years not stepping foot into a club hahaha.. I really am not a party girl in the slightest) and downed 2 glasses of champagne.
I also went for a dinner buffet the following Monday and had a few pieces of salmon sashimi. Additionally, I ordered some ovulation tests online around this time.
I think it was around a week after the buffet (around 20th August) that I started to feel uneasy in my tummy. It felt uncomfortable but it wasn’t like the kind I usually experience right before period, and when it kept going for a few days, I started to think if this was actually a sign of my period coming or if it was something else.
My period has almost always been irregular, so when I checked my period app and realised I was 6 days late, I didn’t think too much about it.
I actually felt a little nauseous. Not so bad that I had to throw up but more like feeling bloated.
Hubby kept on asking me when I told him that the symptoms persisted, “Do you think you could be pregnant?” and kept on calling his ‘mini me’ in my tummy 😂
When the symptoms didn’t go away after 2 weeks, I decided to head out and get myself some pregnancy tests from the pharmacy. I picked up one of those cassette-type (can’t remember the brand) and one of the usual stick (Watsons house brand) – apparently they were having a 1-for-1 promotion for their house brand’s pregnancy tests, so I ended up with 4 sticks (there were 2 in a pack).
The ovulation tests arrived in the mail on the same day. A little too late eh, considering I’ve just bought my pregnancy tests.
The next morning (29 Aug), I jolted off my bed the moment my alarm went off and went to the bathroom with the cassette-type test. Peed into a disposable cup I got as part of the ovulation tests, dropped 3-4 drops of urine into the sample well and really quickly after…
I couldn’t believe my eyes, so I quickly took the Watsons stick and dip it into the urine cup for slightly more than 5 seconds. Two lines appeared right away!
OMG! My jaw dropped to the floor! I patted the tests dry with tissues and while holding them, shook my husband up from his deep slumber. He eyes immediately lit up upon seeing me holding the tests. Switched on the lights, and he was grinning from ear to ear with happiness!! I wish I could have that recorded!
“You’re preggy!!!” – his exact words.
We were both in shock yet ecstatic! Throughout the day I kept on thinking if the 2 tests were accurate, and I asked the husband if I should get another one from Clearblue.
Him: Huh? It already says more than 99% accurate and yet you’re still not convinced?
Me: I know… It’s just that I need reassurance!
So I went to get a Clearblue during lunch, and used it the next morning (30 Aug).
A clear blue (pun intended) positive sign appear almost right away!
Walked out of the bathroom to him asking me, “So how was it?”
“Yayyyyyy!” and promptly closed his eyes and went back to sleep hahahaha.
I quickly called up my gynaecologist that afternoon to make an appointment and thankfully there was a slot for Saturday (1st September).
Saturday came, and I was feeling quite anxious my tummy hurts (happens whenever I’m feeling anxious) and I could feel my heart beating faster than usual.
During the regular check up with the nurse before doctor’s consultation, I was thinking my blood pressure might spiked up because of how anxious I was. Turns out it was a normal 110/70 (a little low actually, considering my usual BP is 120/80). The lady asked when was my first day of my last period (it was in May). She quickly asked, “Are you pregnant?”, to which I just replied, “That’s what I want to find out.”
We were finally called into the room (it felt like forever… my appointment was at 9:30am, and we went in to see the doctor about 11:40-ish). The doctor looked at the notes from the nurse and asked, “So your home test came out positive?”
“Yep, I had 3 tests and all came out positive. So I wanted to confirm it.”
“Well, if the home test says positive, it should be positive. Chemical reaction is more accurate than us humans.”
He then proceeded to run an ultrasound on my lower tummy and right away, the tiny fetus appeared on the screen!!
“Okay, let’s do an internal scan so we can listen to the baby’s heartbeat.” and proceeded to take an transvaginal scan device.
I swear I almost fainted when I saw it. It was so big?!
Might be a little too much information here, but it was quite painful when the doctor inserted the transvaginal scan down there. It only got comfortable after he moved it around a little bit to get a good look at the fetus.
And there it was… our baby’s heartbeat ❤
It was beating really fast (about twice as fast of adult human’s heartbeat)! Felix and I were in awe of how amazing it was. I mean, here’s a tiny little embryo and yet, the heart is already beating strong ❤
It was about 5 weeks old then. The embryo has since developed into a fetus.
When I returned for another scan 2 weeks later, it was discovered that my baby was actually 9 weeks old – more accurate this time given that it has grown and the doctor could measure it appropriately.
I’m now 23 weeks along, and in the first trimester I had been:
- Feeling hungry every 2 hours. No joke, I have to eat something light, e.g. crackers every 2 hours, otherwise I’m gonna feel really sick and nauseated (still experiencing this until about 15 weeks along, but a lot better. I don’t need to snack as often as I had to).
- Having bitter taste in my mouth for no apparent reason (happened for 15-16 weeks, after almost every meal).
- Couldn’t finish my food most of the time (happened until 16-17 weeks), so I need to have smaller meals on more regular intervals.
- Having hunger pangs strikes right before I sleep at 10pm (sometimes).
- Feeling lethargic and tired really easily, all day long. I could spend the whole day resting and napping at home and would still feel tired. One Sunday I literally woke up in the morning, had breakfast, had a 2.5-hour nap, lunch, 3 hour nap, dinner, shower, bed. I’m feeling so much better the moment I’ve entered my 15th week.
- Feeling queasy and bloated in my stomach everyday, and quite nauseous too at times. Thankfully I haven’t reached the point of throwing up just yet (fingers crossed).
- Having mild stomach cramps now and then. Apparently it’s quite a common symptoms as your body is stretching and making a space for a little human (!) inside.
- Throwing up when brushing teeth (still happening). Pregnancy symptoms can be really funny sometimes. Apparently it’s normal to develop new gag reflex when brushing your teeth and that’s what happens to me.
One of the best things about this pregnancy is that my manager’s wife is currently pregnant with their 2nd child (she’s about 1.5 weeks ahead of me), so he could totally sympathise with my symptoms and conditions, especially the hunger pangs and fatigue – cos his wife is experiencing it too.
Felix has been really excited about the whole pregnancy and he’s the one who calms me down whenever I’m having any cramps or nausea episodes.
The 2nd trimester has been good so far, and I could feel my energy is coming back little by little. I could actually go out for a few hours on weekends! (we didn’t really go out during the first trimester). It’s amazing to think how I have a mini human forming inside of me!
Thank you Lord for this gift, for trusting us to be parents. It still feels surreal… ❤️